Wednesday, January 25, 2012 12:10 AM

Broken

listen, ♥What hurts the most, is watching your brothers fight amongst themselves and not be able to do anything to help, or to make them feel better. And for that, I feel like an ultimate failure, especially as a sister.

Trying to pull myself together despite being torn apart inside. Putting on a brave front and a smile, when I'm breaking up on the inside. This feels like death, maybe worse than that.

I wish things were better, I wish 2012 was a little nicer to me. I prayed for a good year, but what I got in return was heartbreaks after heartbreaks, and the undying need to pull myself together or to put on a brave front.

I'm so tired. Life seems so much like a nightmare than it was before.

Crying doesn't solve any problems, so I'll not cry but instead be strong. I can do this for its not the end.

Each time something tries to break me apart, I just have to smile and feel better cause God will provide, he wouldn't give me more than I can carry. /trust

I'll not cry, I'll not cry, I'll not cry!